Less Pissy . . .

I did get some decent sleep last night. That helps. I think that being a homeschooler has its drawbacks. We’re finishing up our ninth year and I STILL struggle with trying to cram everything ever written into the end of the year. I know it’s not rational, but I get panicky. What if I’m making a HUGE mistake? What if I forgot to teach them something? What if they do something awkward socially? Is that my fault or just them being stoopid boys? For the most part, I’m confident in our choice to homeschool. It’s just that end of the year feeling of dread. I’m not sure what I think is going to happen (I’ve been waiting more than 30 years for the library police) . . . but I just know it’s going to be bad. Does that make sense to anyone? Deep down, I know the boys have learned A LOT and are prepared (or will be prepared) for life in the world, but everyone’s entitled to some doubt and restless nights, right?

These Easter flowers, given to my mom and recently stolen from my mom’s house, have made me happy all day.

Andy came home from tae kwon do tonight as a purple belt. He tried to be cool about it, but I could tell he was thrilled. (Something about him carrying the new belt around with him and taking it to bed and the constant jumping up and down . . .) I’m so proud of him.

And, finally, I’m going to recommend the The Book Thief again. The older boys are studying modern history (1850-present) this year. They have been reading a lot of books. I tossed in The Book Thief after receiving it for Christmas this year. The Diary of Anne Frank juxtaposed to this book is a powerful lesson, in my opinion. Two girls of roughly the same age. Two girls in entirely different circumstances – combined, the books give you an idea of what life for regular people might have been like in Germany during this time. Hard-hitting, tear-jerking and very real books. I don’t recommend having your kids read these books (especially back-to-back) if they are younger than 15 (and maybe older if you have a very sensitive kid). Even with older kids, be prepared for lots of talking and discussions and late-night questions (which I have decided is the older kids’ way of asking for an extra hug).

Today was just a nice day. The kids did their work and were actually interested and involved. I love those days. I “finished” the laundry (well, it was done at 4 pm, I have full hampers again now at 2 am). The soaps I made over the weekend are looking at lot more promising. Not much, but it’s an improvement! I’ll take what I can get.

4 thoughts on “Less Pissy . . .

  1. I always worry that I’ve done so much damage or lack of learning this or that, that I couldn’t even put them in public school. Glad you are feeling a bit better.

  2. Feeling your end of year angst…this is the time of the year to really question ourselves.

    You are so ‘green’ ‘recycling’ those flowers!!

  3. “lots of talking and discussions and late-night questions (which I have decided is the older kids’ way of asking for an extra hug).”

    Man, I could just stay up all night, quoting you! You’re my hero.

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