Okay, my interests have always ranged far and wide and make no particular sense when you put them all together. However, my complete and total inability to focus on one thing lately is starting to scare me. Usually, I start out scattered and then find my groove and get things done. These days? No groove, nothing getting done. Lots of things getting started . . . my house looks like a war zone.
Ian abandoned us on Wednesday. He’s in Tallahassee living with Dan now. Like he’s a grown up or something. For some reason, Ian’s leaving is hitting me much harder than Dan leaving. (I love you, Dan!) And then, there’s Dan. He’s going to finish college, get married and start a life with the-girl-that-is-a-friend. I love the-girl-that-is-a-friend, aka Christi, but still . . . Last week was pretty much of a wash. I wandered and thought deep thoughts and accomplished nothing.
Andy’s books for next year are arriving haphazardly. I have no real plan yet. Nice, huh? I have been harping at him that ninth grade counts and I have not a single plan in place. I have an ebook I’m supposed to be writing. I’ve already lost money on that score – I am on my third version. This one, at least feels right. I don’t know why I stress so much about it – my name is not going on it, but I hate the thought of delivering something crappy. Live and learn. I think I need to find out how one goes about publishing their own ebooks. I surely couldn’t make less.
Over the weekend, the-girl-that-is-a-friend/Christi invited me and Bing to go along with her and her mom wedding dress shopping. Can you say girl-fix????? I remember my own wedding dress shopping. I have linebacker shoulders and had to try on plus-size dresses with tons of clips and stuff. Christi? Perfect size four. I have never, ever seen a person try on clothing that fit every damn time! Each dress she tried on looked better than the first – no alternations needed. It was so fun. Like shopping with a super model. Still, we knew she’d found THE dress when she came bouncing out in yet another perfectly fitting gown. She actually glowed. I suggested to her mom that we get Christi to try on our dresses – that way we’ll look awesome too! (work with me)
During the times Christi was changing we helped the group sitting with us choose mother-of-the-bride and mother-of-the-groom dresses. What a fun family. The moms were a riot! I felt much better listening to them – both lovely – complain about sagging bits and disappearing parts. We’re all in this together, right? In the end they both picked dresses that suited them exactly. It was an excellent way to spend a Saturday morning.
To celebrate, we went out for MONSTER burgers, fries and the most amazing milkshakes. My mom and I both feel so lucky/happy/blessed to be included in the planning stages. I think Christi’s mom, my mom and I are still stunned that we are actually planning a wedding. Especially Christi’s mom. It’s crazy. Don’t worry, I will be sharing more as things develop. If anyone has wedding tips, please share – big, small, weird, it’s all good.
I am so excited for this week – no rowing, no major commitments. I WILL finish this book. I WILL finish painting (btw – I need new wall quotes if you have anything) and I WILL accept the fact that my kids are all leaving me – except Andy. I’m keeping Andy forever. I don’t know how to work anything in our house without at least one kid here. (Don’t tell Andy though, it’s a surprise.)
Hope things are going well in your world. Happy Monday!